BREASTFEEDING… Time to end this amazing emotional bond …

  
I have been very lucky to be able to breastfeed Chloe straight away without any problems… Once she got hold of my breast and started sucking she didn’t want to let go for 12 hours  !! This very painful 12 hours were a beginning of an amazing, emotional bond that I had with Chloe. 

 I loved every minute of it, every feed, every cuddle which came with it … And it made my life so much easier; I didn’t have to worry about having formula, sterilising bottles, making milk in the middle of night while baby screams for food…  

 Now that in few weeks time Chloe will be one and I will be going back at work it’s time to stop it… Naturally the amount of times I breastfeed Chloe has been dropping slowly over the last few months as she started to eat more and more solid food. We are now on 2 feeds a day, one in the morning and one in the evening . This week I have started to give her formula in the evening and only breastfed her in the morning . It has made me feel very sad and emotional … Especially when in the middle of the day she would start pulling my top down looking at my breast and say in her baby talk : give me my milk ! I never thought that this will be so emotional ! 

 My baby girl is growing up ….. 

You all are sleeping tight  and me ?? No 

 4:30 am in the morning … Been awake for around 96 minutes …. And it doesn’t seem as if I am going to sleep any time soon, why? Trying to get Chloe in to her routine of sleeping through the night.
 You know when you reed that you shouldn’t be bringing your baby to your bed when she/he is unwell, that you shouldn’t be breast feeding them for comfort, you shouldn’t be picking them up and rocking … I can understand why they say NOT to do it. 

 Few weeks back Chloe has had her first cold and straight after she went through seperation anxiety,  this means a lot of getting  up at night and crying. I couldn’t see her being so upset and just leave her to it, so I breastfeed her (it was really working), cuddled her a lot and was sometimes even bringing her to bed with me (which I have never done before). Now I have my 11months old waking up between 4am and 5 am demanding to be feed, and not being able to go back to sleep without it. This has to stop as I can’t be doing it when I go back to work… I have been trying to do it now for over a week but always gave in to her demands so that me and my husband could get some sleep but now with hubby away on business trip I am on the mission to stop it and to stick to it. 

 I feel so sorry for her as she has been trying to go to sleep for the last hour without a success…. I think that this might be a very long night …. 

 

MATERNITY LEAVE COMING TO AN END … NO!!! NO !!! NO!!!

 It’s official, my maternity leave is coming to an end very soon NO NO NO NO!!!! 😭 I have 5 weeks left and then I have to go back to work. First 3 months I will work 4 days a week. After the first 3 months I will be back at work full time; that is 5 days a week, 40 hours a week, 2400 minutes away from my precious little girl every single week. This means that I won’t see her in the morning, I won’t get her dressed, I won’t give her her breakfast, I won’t be playing with her, cuddling her, kissing her until 5pm when I will be back home from work…. Just thinking about it makes me cry! How will I do it? How will I cope with it?  

 This week we start settling in sessions at the nursery which Chloe will attend 2 days a week. We also will start teaching grandparents how to look after Chloe and slowly start leaving Chloe with them. I know that I have to do it so Chloe gets used to being without me but isn’t it ridiculous ? Isn’t it ridiculous that I am expected to leave my baby when the only thing I want to do is to have her next to me all the time so I can enjoy every second that I have left of my maternity leave? 

 I am trying to make the most of the 5 weeks left …There seems to be way too many things that I should do while I am still off, and every day things that I have to do …  

 My mum had 4 kids and was working full time and she has done an amazing job bringing us up… Everyone keeps telling me that after a few days back at work I will be fine …. I know that this is life and you just get on with it and make the most of what you have … But right now I don’t know how I will do it…. This will be up there with one of the hardest things that I have had to do in life … 

WHAT HAS JUST HAPPENED ???!!! Google screaming baby.

I have not been on the internet googling baby problems for a long long time! I  thing the last time I did it was when Chloe was around 4 months old … Since then I have got very confident in playing my new part of yummy mummy; I have got to know Chloe very well, we have settled in to a nice and good routine (with a small teething hiccups every few weeks) so I started to feel very comfortable ….. Not anymore !!!

 It has started yesterday late afternoon, I had to move some furniture so I placed Chloe in her playpen. The second I did it and left the room (it took all of a second) she went crazy, I have never seen her cry like that, on a secon thought I think that the only time she went so crazy was when we gave her, her first bath. She was crying and while crying screaming on top of her voice; tears were everywhere and she was getting to upset that she was almost sick! 

 I tried to calm her while in the playpen with no succes, I took her out and after 20 minutes of cuddling she stopped crying. Then she would do exactly this same every time I tried to put her on the floor ! It took hours for her to go back to her happy self … 

 Today was fine until the second nap. I put her down for her nap and she started going crazy… Exact repeat of yesterday crying and screaming … 

What is going on?!!! 

 Is it because she still  has runny nose ? 

Is it because she is teething ?

Is it the seperation anxiety? 

What is going on? !!!

ILL ABROAD !

  
Above Us yesterday before it all started …. 

Writing it while laying on the hotel bed in Lisbon, Portugal waiting for Chloe to get up from her morning nap.

 This meant to be the perfect last family holidays before I have to go back to work … Not the first time when Chloe gets sick !!! Yep I was lucky enough not to have Chloe ill until now. 

 She was fine the whole day when we were traveling except a bit of a runny nose, which I blamed on teething !  She went of to sleep without any problem and then at midnight it all kicked off. 

 Chloe woke up screaming  with 39 C fever and such a bad runny nose that she couldn’t breath ! That’s when the panic started building inside me … What if giving Calpol won’t get the temperature down? Should I be asking the hotel for a doctor or an ambulance ?… Why is this temperature not going down (2min after giving calpol) ? … 

 Chloe would be waking up every 10 minutes crying for the next few hours … I think that we managed to settle at around 4am … 

 Luckily I had thermometer , calpol, nose spray and this little funny thing to clean baby nose with me … Or shall I say luckily I had Calpol as the rest wasn’t really helpful to me. You see I have taken the forehead thermometer which as it turns up reeds different temperature every second, Chloe would scream whenever I went enywhere near her with nose “thing” (don’t know how this thing is called)  or the nose spray so I couldn’t use it. 

 After googling baby temperature  on NHS website I found out that you shouldn’t use forehead thermometer on babies as it isn’t accurate (hhhmmmm why do they sell them? Why do they market them for babies?) and that with baby over 6 months I shouldn’t panic yet (easier said that done!). I ended up just giving her lots of breast milk and water to keep her hydrated and Calpol to keep the temperature in control. 

 Luckily Chloe seems very happy this morning with her amazingly good appetite (she loves hotel breakfasts) and so far good morning nap so fingers crossed we went thorough the worst. Now we just need to go to the pharmacy to get more Calpol and old school thermometer 😊

LETS PARTY TILL WE DROP … 

  
 It’s only just over 1 left till my little baby turns 1 !!! I can’t believe that my little girl will be 1!!!????  When did the time go ? I honestly don’t know! 

 I remember everyone telling me over and over again to enjoy Chloe being a baby because she will grow very fast, to enjoy all of the cuddling you get when they are tiny because once they can sit on they own they don’t want to cuddle anymore as its too boring, enjoy being at home as maternity finishes do quickly ….. I understand now why …. The time goes VERY quickly !!!

 With almost 2 months to go it’s time to start organising Chloe’s 1st birthday party !  I know that at this age Chloe doesn’t know what a birthday is so she definitely doesn’t understand that it will be HER birthday, that she doesn’t care if we have a tiny or a big party, or if we have any party at all…. When Chloe was born we decided (I must say it came quite natural 😂) that we will be making big deal out of everything that is to do with Chloe (first smile, step, tooth, solid poo 😂) and that’s includes her 1st birthday. Some people would say that I am just doing it for myself … Partly yes …. Mainly I am creating my family memories which we can documents and share with Chloe in 20 years time, so I know that I have done everything that I could to make sure that my angel has a special day because she is a very special precious girl  (I can’t see anything bad in it, you?). 

 Because Chloe doesn’t have favourite toy or cartoon I will go with a colour and print scheme instead of a theme. I want it to be colourful, fun and stimulating for her and other babies! As you already know I work in visual department which means that 1 I am very picky when it comes to how something looks, 2 I am lucky that I can do a lot myself. 

 I have been spending every free minute in Pinterest looking for ideas and getting inspired; Ideas for cake, decorations, themes, Chloe’s outfit, food etc. 

 Lucky I managed to find nice hall for the party (I wish I could do it at home but there is no way I could fit everyone comfortably) so I can now start concentrating on the details. I am already half way through creating the invitations (Yes I am doing it by myself).  

 I plan to decorate the cakes myself (I am not brawe enough to bake it😊) I just need to come up with some idea as to what I want ; And yes cakes as I will need 3 😳. One for the small family celebration on the actual birthday day, one for the party and one for the cake smashing photosession 😊. 

 You will be hearing lots about it in the next month. 

 What is your opinion about 1st birthday parties ? Have you already had one and have some tips? Or maybe you could share some of your ideas ? Please share with us. 

Have a lovely day x

MAKING THE MOST OF THE MATERNITY LEAVE. 

I am writing while on holidays in Poland, Krakow. Or shall I say Me and Chloe are on holidays while my husband is working 😂. I am polish living in London so we come to Poland quite often (often for someone with a baby every 4 months or so).I usually go to  my home town Wroclaw, and for the past few years it was very busy and hectic. This time my husband was send to Krakow for work and Me and Chloe have came with him. This meant that I had nothing to do except spending time with Chloe!  We are having so much quality time together,I am shocked how different it is back at home. You would think that I spend as much time with her her as I do back at home … But back at home I have to cook, clean, sort things out, get on a tube for ages to get somewhere …. Here I only do things with her, sightseeing, swimming, going out for lunch,dinner, coffee … everything is within 10 minutes walk. This has made me realise that though I spent the whole day with Vhloe it’s not a quality time … I need to make sure that I change it as soon as I am back home especially that I have only 2 months of maternity leave left 😕

NURSERY : PRETTY? PRACTICAL? THINGS TO THINK ABOUT BEFORE DECORATING NURSERY. 

My gorgeous girl is now 10 months old. I remember how exciting I got when I was decorating her room… And crazy buying all of those things that you see in the shops, all of those things that you see on the nursery photos on the internet and in the magazines. The reason why I write it is because lots of those things shouldn’t be used in a baby room!!! As Chloe was growing and changing I was finding out more about having baby, her needs, dos and donts and I discovered that I had to remove lots of things out of her room as they were /are dangerous.

Some examples:

– Cot bumper

 I was shopping for one for months ! This was such a key accessory in the room, it had to be perfect ! What I discovered is that you shouldn’t use them when baby is little because there is a link between using it and cot death. As they grow a bit bigger it’s dangerous as they start pulling it up, looking underneath it etc. I know that because as soon as I moved Chloe in to her cot at 6months (with the bumpers on) she was pulling it in all directions, getting her head undernight it … I had to remove the bumper straight away.

 Cot bar bumpers are a good solutions for babies over 6 months (not recommend before that) as they can’t be pulled off/up.You can also buy breathing cot bumpers. 

– Cot conopy

 Bought one to go over the cot … Was going for the cute, soft, princess look … Turns out as soon as they can grab things and reach with theirs arms it’s a very big risk … Which doesn’t go away till they are 2 years old ?3 years old?. I had removed my one before Chloe was born and decided to use it later. Recently I used it to create cosy reading corner ….

Uuhhhhgggg bad decision , 9 months old baby will be just pulling it, getting it round herself … which is very dangerous. So I just got rid of it for good.

Duvet covers

 You look at the huge choice of the cutest duvet covers you have seen and you are trying to find one which will compliment your baby’s nursery …. Babies aren’t allowed to sleep under the duve until 1 year old (or even older) because it’s a suffocating risk. 

Accesories to go in to the cot . 

Again you never see just plain cot in the display; it’s always dressed up and finished with cute cushions and cuddly toys. The only but is … Your baby shouldn’t have anything in the cot until they are older because it’s a risk. And it is better to be safe than sorry in my opinion. 

SAFE DOESNT MEAN BORING OR UGLY!   There is so much you can do to make the baby room look great but safe as well. It will also save you lots of money which is handy when you need to buy everything at once ! 

 Instead of buying duve covers just invest in a statement fitted sheets, you can buy pretty printed ones or bold colour ones; baby’s fitted sheets don’t have to (shouldn’t) be white. This is an example of one of Chloe’s fitted sheets.   

You can find very good selection in Mamas & Papas, Marks & Spencer, Nubie.

 Instead of Conopy you can just go for a some sort of statement pice hanging over the cot or on the wall above the cot. 

– Very popular are Pom poms which come in lots of different colours and textures (paper and tulle). This is an example from Chloe’s room of tulle pom poms which I hanged over her reading/play corner. 

  
– You can get an amazing letters and spell baby name on the wall above the cot.  The choice of letteres is very big so you will definitely find something that you like. If not you can even design your own one.

  
– go with a bold print wallpaper, if you opt for this option you won’t need much more that that, as you need to keep the rest of the room quite simple to make the wallpaper stand out. 

– if you not in to the wallpapers or you just not brave enough, the great option is wall stickers. Again there is a very big selection of stickers so you should be able to find something to fit your scheme/taste. 

 

– or you could just paint something yourself? 😀

 And then there is an option of just adding lots of Accesories like curtains, ruggs, toys, pictures which can transform a plain room in to a very special nursery. 

 Do you have any good designer tips? Or want to share your baby’s room photos ? Please feel free to comment / post! Have a wonderful day x