MATERNITY LEAVE COMING TO AN END … NO!!! NO !!! NO!!!

 It’s official, my maternity leave is coming to an end very soon NO NO NO NO!!!! 😭 I have 5 weeks left and then I have to go back to work. First 3 months I will work 4 days a week. After the first 3 months I will be back at work full time; that is 5 days a week, 40 hours a week, 2400 minutes away from my precious little girl every single week. This means that I won’t see her in the morning, I won’t get her dressed, I won’t give her her breakfast, I won’t be playing with her, cuddling her, kissing her until 5pm when I will be back home from work…. Just thinking about it makes me cry! How will I do it? How will I cope with it?  

 This week we start settling in sessions at the nursery which Chloe will attend 2 days a week. We also will start teaching grandparents how to look after Chloe and slowly start leaving Chloe with them. I know that I have to do it so Chloe gets used to being without me but isn’t it ridiculous ? Isn’t it ridiculous that I am expected to leave my baby when the only thing I want to do is to have her next to me all the time so I can enjoy every second that I have left of my maternity leave? 

 I am trying to make the most of the 5 weeks left …There seems to be way too many things that I should do while I am still off, and every day things that I have to do …  

 My mum had 4 kids and was working full time and she has done an amazing job bringing us up… Everyone keeps telling me that after a few days back at work I will be fine …. I know that this is life and you just get on with it and make the most of what you have … But right now I don’t know how I will do it…. This will be up there with one of the hardest things that I have had to do in life …