It’s official, my maternity leave is coming to an end very soon NO NO NO NO!!!! 😭 I have 5 weeks left and then I have to go back to work. First 3 months I will work 4 days a week. After the first 3 months I will be back at work full time; that is 5 days a week, 40 hours a week, 2400 minutes away from my precious little girl every single week. This means that I won’t see her in the morning, I won’t get her dressed, I won’t give her her breakfast, I won’t be playing with her, cuddling her, kissing her until 5pm when I will be back home from work…. Just thinking about it makes me cry! How will I do it? How will I cope with it?  

 This week we start settling in sessions at the nursery which Chloe will attend 2 days a week. We also will start teaching grandparents how to look after Chloe and slowly start leaving Chloe with them. I know that I have to do it so Chloe gets used to being without me but isn’t it ridiculous ? Isn’t it ridiculous that I am expected to leave my baby when the only thing I want to do is to have her next to me all the time so I can enjoy every second that I have left of my maternity leave? 

 I am trying to make the most of the 5 weeks left …There seems to be way too many things that I should do while I am still off, and every day things that I have to do …  

 My mum had 4 kids and was working full time and she has done an amazing job bringing us up… Everyone keeps telling me that after a few days back at work I will be fine …. I know that this is life and you just get on with it and make the most of what you have … But right now I don’t know how I will do it…. This will be up there with one of the hardest things that I have had to do in life … 

WHAT HAS JUST HAPPENED ???!!! Google screaming baby.

I have not been on the internet googling baby problems for a long long time! I  thing the last time I did it was when Chloe was around 4 months old … Since then I have got very confident in playing my new part of yummy mummy; I have got to know Chloe very well, we have settled in to a nice and good routine (with a small teething hiccups every few weeks) so I started to feel very comfortable ….. Not anymore !!!

 It has started yesterday late afternoon, I had to move some furniture so I placed Chloe in her playpen. The second I did it and left the room (it took all of a second) she went crazy, I have never seen her cry like that, on a secon thought I think that the only time she went so crazy was when we gave her, her first bath. She was crying and while crying screaming on top of her voice; tears were everywhere and she was getting to upset that she was almost sick! 

 I tried to calm her while in the playpen with no succes, I took her out and after 20 minutes of cuddling she stopped crying. Then she would do exactly this same every time I tried to put her on the floor ! It took hours for her to go back to her happy self … 

 Today was fine until the second nap. I put her down for her nap and she started going crazy… Exact repeat of yesterday crying and screaming … 

What is going on?!!! 

 Is it because she still  has runny nose ? 

Is it because she is teething ?

Is it the seperation anxiety? 

What is going on? !!!