This week was my first week of maternity leave. Yes it is already that time!!! I have only 2 weeks left to my due date (hopefully it will be less than that!).
As you can imagine, I am crazy busy. Because I was working full time and have a toddler I haven’t managed to do a lot inpreparation for my new arrival. What we have managed to accomplish is to order/buy everything and dump it in the spare bedroom 😁.
Now that I am on maternity leave I could start getting things done …. once toddler is out of the way. I decided to keep Chloe in the nursery for 2 full days so I could get on with things …. what I didn’t expect is the guilt !!! I have been feeling so guilty for leaving her at the nursery and going home!!!! This is crazy !!! How can I feel so guilty about it??!! I am a good mum who does everything and anything for her girl, so why do I feel so bad that I feel like crying when I leave her there? (I can’t only blame it on my hormones).
Monday I was feeling bad but I was so busy with painting, unpacking etc that I just keep pushing it out of my mind. Today though I decided that I need to get my hair done (in between sorting out the nursery) and trust me I desperately needed it done. I was prepared to feel as bad as on Monday … but this is much worst ! How dare I take some time to myself and leave my girl at the nursery??!!! Bad monther, bad mother !!! Why do we feel so guilty??!! This is irrational! We already give most of our life to our kids, we should be able to take a little brake to treat ourselfs without this horrible guilt feeling hanging over our heads !
